it has been probably about a year? right?

i drank exactly the wrong amount of wine tonight. or perhaps just drank the wrong beverage for a slow and lost kind of a day. either way, it's brought on introspection and melancholy instead of happy giddy, which is a shame. i'm not in the mood for introspection.

i think i have to recognize that, despite the fact that this COULD be a great jumping-off point for me and my life, the next 12 months are much more likely to be about Getting Through than they are to be profoundly life-changing and inspirational. i have this feeling. and i think i can make peace with that. but ...

well.

there is much, much more to say, as always. perhaps i'll start posting here again. won't mean much to any of you, but i've never stopped reading. i just stopped wanting to write about my life. maybe i'm ready to start again.

love to everyone.

i am feeling more anxious and less...intoxicated this afternoon than i was last night, so no poetry from me today. just a very quick update for you.

- still with the lovely young lady i was dating when we last spoke. we live together now, paying too much for my old apartment without a third roommate. i love her and things in our relationship are generally good. she's been recently diagnosed with endometriosis and will be having surgery this fall, which has continued to cramp her style in terms of finishing up her last 3 credits of college, finding a job, etc. her dad still pays her bills. her inertia and continued unemployment are my only concerns.

- finished up my MPH a few weeks ago, huzzah! left my job at the school as well, and took two weeks of pure vacation at L's summer house in maine. it was great.

- now am unemployed and stressed about money. lalala.

i'm sure there's more to fill you in on, but i just can't think of anything else. job, school, relationship. check! tell me what you want to know more about and i'd be happy to share.